Set Me Free

I’m going to share with you guys a dream I had a few days ago…

All I remember is..  there are about 15 people sitting in a circle outside on folding chairs at a Christian retreat.  I distinctly remember sitting with Dan on my left, beside him was my friends Sarah and Megan.   Beside them was the camp leader.  A big man with white hair and a white beard.  A very gentle looking man.

As we’re sitting in the circle I notice we’re all holding plain white envelopes.  He instructs us that if we want to recive Christ as our saviour then we must toss the envelope into these bowls at our feet.  It’s then that I notice the bowls each have fire in them.  We’re burning whatever was in the letter.  (I have no idea what was in my envelope, if anything at all).  He starts by throwing his into the fire.  Then Sarah tosses hers in.. Megan holds on to hers and shakes her head.  Everyone in the group nods.  We all know that she’s just here to learn about Christianity, not to make any commitments.  Then my husband tosses his envelope in, in a moment of panic I shake my head and hold onto my envelope.  I don’t like doing things because it’s expected, and I don’t like “proving” my christianity in such ways.   Everyone in the group gasps and is in total shock.  I sputter out an excuse like “I want to learn more before I commit”.  Then I get up and walk out of the group, Dan and the leader following me.

I turn to Dan and appologize for not throwing my letter in.  He grabs my hand and nods and says with a grin, “it’s okay, I understand.  Take your time.”  That’s when the camp leader comes around, with a look of fury on his face.

“You have no idea what you’ve done!” he bellowed

“wha?  I just need time!” I say back.

“this isn’t just about you.”  he replies then looks over to Dan.  “Let me show you what I mean.”  He goes behind Dan, so we’re in a line, they’re both facing me.  He takes out two pins and holds one at Dans shoulder but not touching him, then holds the other one to his shoulder.  He jabs himself with the pin and at that moment Dan jumps and grabs his shoulder as if he’d been jabbed in the shoulder too.   Then he hold the pin over my shoulder and Dans shoulder and jabs me.  Nothing happens to Dan.

I begin to cry at the realization.

“THIS is what it means to be together with Christ! THIS is what YOU can do for your husband!” He shouted.  Then I woke up.

Weird.